The day after...

Yesterday, I turned 41.  Yoiks.  40 I could cope with.  41 is a whole other age to cope with.  It's a march towards 50 - not an age I want to contemplate heading towards.


I took myself off to the movies in the morning - to see Emilio Estevez's film 'The Way'. Martin Sheen, James Nesbitt, Deborah Kara Unger and a brilliant Dutch actor I'd never seen before, with the delightful name of Yorik van Wangeningen.  It was a really beautiful film.  I like the way Emilio Estevez's movies concentrate more on the characters themselves rather than using them to drive the plot.  It was quite a spiritual film - perfect for my mood yesterday, which was quite introspective.


After an afternoon spent re-reddening my locks, I met up with a few friends for some gingerbread martinis at my favourite city bar.  A few too many were consumed, so much so that I had to get off the tram home because I was feeling a little woozy!  I ended up walking the rest of the way home (about a 45 minute walk), which helped, but I'm glad I had the day off today to recover!  


Thanks to the powers of facebook, I had some 90-odd messages of birthday wishes from various friends.  I also had a bunch of voicemails, emails and text messages too, which was lovely. Even my brother remembered to call me and he's hopeless at remembering my birthday!


However, in typical 'me' fashion, I'm finding it difficult to focus on the fact that almost 100 people thought of me and took time to message me yesterday and instead I'm being eaten up by negative thoughts about the friends who didn't.  A few really good, close friends whose birthdays I always remember and who I expected to at least send me a text message or email, haven't done so and it hurts.  Does this make them any less a friend?  No, I guess not.  It's just a birthday after all.  I'll get over it eventually.  But it still hurts.


In the meantime, this quote just popped up in my inbox. 


Apt.

Yesterday I took the time to do one of the things I like best to do, which is go to the movies.  I saw a movie which inspired me and that will help me to focus away from the disagreeable surprises of friends not remembering my birthday.  


Onwards and upwards.


I have an audition monologue to work on... best I get back to it.


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